Survivors Tell their Stories
- May 2, 2020
- 3 min read
The following stories of sexual violence and harassment were submitted to us via @weareallaffected on Instagram.
Disclaimer: These stories discuss rape and sexual assault.
“I tried to convince myself that I consented to it, but I knew I hadn’t.”
I was having oral sex with this guy which I consented to. But he wanted to take it further so he told me to turn around, and he laid on top of me and started going inside of me. I was in too much shock to move or say anything. After it was over for about a month, I tried to convince myself that I consented to it, but I knew I hadn’t. The help of my friends got me through it. To this day, he doesn’t think he did anything wrong, but I’ll never forget it. This has only made me stronger because I am a survivor.
“I lost my best friend and my innocence that day.”
I was raped in October by my best friend. First, they picked me up from my house and took me to theirs where I was manipulated and drugged. I ended up not being able to walk. I was picked up and thrown into their bed where I was played with and raped for hours on end. I had to lay there the entire night until they took me home the next morning. I ended up getting a protection order against them. But I lost my best friend and my innocence that day.
“Even the ones you trust can do the unspeakable to you.”
Last year, my toxic ex-boyfriend and I were hanging out at a park because my parents would get mad if they knew I was with a boy. I’m 17 years old, mind you, but it’s okay. Anyway, we were at the park and sitting down on the playground, and he started touching me down there. I constantly asked him to stop and he didn’t. Then, he held me down and did what I'd never thought he’d do to me. Even the ones you trust can do the unspeakable to you. After that, I left crying and went home. He didn't even care.
“He would make me touch his private area in class”
I dated him for a year and a half, during this I was emotionally and sexually abused. He would touch me in class, and when I asked him to stop he would get mad, I was manipulated for over a year. He would embarrass me at dances by making my dress fly up; he would make me touch his private area in class and if I didn't, he wouldn't talk to me or would get really upset. He got mad a lot. After telling my dad that he made me unhappy and that he got angry everyday toward me, he is mad at me for 'breaking his heart.’ When my brother broke up with his girlfriend because she kept getting mad at him, he told him he was proud. This is not okay, and I wish more parents were the opposite of this.
“I never felt so empty inside.”
When I was in 3/4 grade I used to have sleepovers with my best friend that was my cousin. During nights when she would fall asleep, her older brother would drag me to the bed and touch me in a sexual way every sleepover, and in the morning- right in the morning- I would leave and my mom would pick me up. I wish I had the strength to tell her what happened, and I wish I knew what I could’ve done. I was just a confused young little girl and couldn’t understand what he did to me. Years later- age 15- my boyfriend pressured me into sex, last minute, I changed my mind. At that moment, he raped me and took away a special first for me. I remember just staring at the ceiling. I never felt so empty inside. To this day- age 19- I still have nightmares and feel uncomfortable around men and still paranoid thinking the worst of men.
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